Can't believe it's been 3 yrs.... should I say 3yrs of losing him or 3 yrs of having him in my memory. Yes, this day wells up my eyes and heart. I can't stop thinking how he would have looked. How his voice would have been, how naughty he would have been. I never shared the feeling of his loss with my daughter. Instead I kept telling her that I was happy to have her and that I'm fine because of her but she felt I hadn't acknowledged the loss of Adyuth and I had forgotten him which would make him sad. I had to explain her that I did not forget him even for a moment but I just didn't want her to get upset because I was upset. I realised, she felt better being open and normal about Adyuth, it made her realise I loved both of them equally because, although he is gone he means so much to her and she keeps talking to me about him. When she sees an annoying brother of her friend she says she wonders if Adyuth would have been like that. She says she pretends to have h...